Disturbed

Well, this was in a friend's away message and I believe it was regarding someone we know.

i know i shouldnt still care from him but i do i know should not love him but i do i know i should give up but i dont i know i should move on but i wont i know i shouldnt cry over him but i doi know all these things and yet i still do them or not do them very frustrating when the person doesnt care for you the same way BUT leads you on like they do and its not them just being themselves it hurts to see them everyday , not making it any easier on you to get over them and then it dawns on you that you are in love with this person but there isnt that sigh of relief when the realization is made so what do you do break off the friendship to save face or face the music stop iming them , dont talk to him to stop the tears from running down your face just because you cant have him or suck it up and save the tears for at night when no one can see or hear them especially not him ... not that he even cared in the first place or ever willand yes he will realize too little too late that what he was looking for was right there at his disposable but then you will be married to someone who did realize your value in just one glance and hes stuck with someone he could never be happy with like he could have been with you and even though that may happen it doesnt heal the wounds because all you wanted was him but you cant make him love and be with you what do you do ?

I'm allowed to be disturbed, right?

*the grammatical errors and what not are not mine